Several days ago I made the statement that in Haiti, trauma is a way of life as opposed to an event. It really is. And I don't say that to minimize the things that Haitians go through on a daily basis, or the things that we go through on a daily basis (although I will acknowledge they are different things.)
Saving/budgeting is not really too big of a part of the culture here. It's a very here and now type of thing. If I have the money, I buy it. If I don't have the money-- well, either I borrow the money for it or just don't buy it. (I guess it's not too different from the situation in the states now is it?)
But in a country where it seems that there is always something else bad coming-- a hurricane, a job loss, a robbery, an earthquake, a flood, an accident, an illness, a death, a landslide... I can see the tendency to not worry (or plan) too much for tomorrow and live in the day. Because just because you have it today doesn't mean it won't be wiped out tomorrow.
However, as a North American, I could also see the tendency to want to save up as much as possible because you just don't know what's coming next and you want to be ready for it. Now, I would assert that the flaw in that thinking here is that the depth of need is so great you couldn't really save enough to get you through. I mean you might initially, but incident after incident after incident will leave you dry sooner or later. And then really, once that feeling of security is gone, you are playing off the same page as the Haitian people-- needing to depend on the Lord for his provision.
I would argue that it is during the most uncomfortable, under-funded, stretching times that we get to see the face of the Lord the brightest. It may not seem like it at the time, but in retrospect, I think we will find it's the truth. But it's a place we rarely get to in the states because there is always some other level of provision available-- be it a social program or access to credit that help us "afford" the hard times.
This past year has been financially stretching in a lot of ways-- not the least of which has been the robbery. But tonight I thought of this passage--
Matthew 6:19-21“Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.This year I have seen our two different storage places be overtaken by mice/rats. They ate their way through several cases of rice. They ate through extra clothing/shoes that were being stored in our depot. They ate through tarps and a bunch of our Christmas decorations. And there's a tendency to get really frustrated about that.
But if I think about what I really care about-- these things being destroyed-- yeah, they are just things. My kids have clothes they can wear. Lots of them. They were only destroyed BECAUSE they were extras. The ones in use weren't destroyed. Us storing them up for later-- could it be that was a chance we were missing out on seeing God provide for us when we needed more? Same with the tarps-- our main use of tarps is when we're going to Port Au Prince to pick up teams and to cover all their bags of donated stuff. Some of that stuff will be items we will need for our homes or to be distributed. But some of that stuff will be organized into boxes and put into out depot for the future. (Anyone remember what happens to a lot of stuff stored in the depot?)
And Christmas decorations. I love Christmas decorations. Like I REALLY love Christmas decorations. They bring me joy. A lot of joy. But they are not what Christmas is about.
Last year we learned that for sure.And yeah-- when the robbers came, they cleaned us out. We had a month's worth of money in our safe. Storing up-- keeping cash on hand for emergencies... gone. Our treasured expensive smart phones. Gone. We miss our phones, I am not gonna lie, but there's also something that feels like I don't want to replace them. They will probably just get lost, broken or stolen again. Digicel sells a $12 phone that I am using now. It's pretty low-end, but it totally works.
In everything there's a balance. I don't know where the balance is.
Am I storing up treasures on earth by having a laptop and a three-wheeled moto? Or am I storing up treasures in heaven by "giving up" hot water and reliable electricity?
Am I desiring treasures on earth by really wanting a Mangine family car? (I am over motos since Nick and I tumbled off one today-- we are fine. And yes, we were wearing helmets.) Or am I desiring treasures in heaven by not replacing the Christmas decorations?
It's hard to say until you get to the last verse of that passage...
For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
It's not mine to judge what stuff everyone should have. It might not even be for me to judge the "rightness" of the stuff I have. Clearly that's a more complex issue with different right answers for different people. But in the here and now, what I can do is an audit on the longings of my heart. Because
where my treasure is, there my heart will be too. If I am longing after "things" in the hopes that it will make me happy, it's an indication that my heart is not filled solely by the creator.
Just something to think about...
How about you?
What do you have that you're just storing up as treasures on earth (that might be rotting, being eaten by moths or rats or just stealing your joy (and opportunity to serve/bless others) because of the clutter/lack of space in your home from all your treasures?) Are you grasping tightly and over-saving (read: hoarding) money "just in case?" Could those "treasures" be re-assigned to heaven? Heavenly things? Heavenly causes? Heavenly opportunities?
Think about it.
Because in heaven, and only there, your treasures are safe.