Thursday, September 30, 2010
I am not sure what to think about this dude. He used to be a general in the Haitian military (back when there was one), he drives really fast, and walks even faster. He's a big (as in muscular, not fat) dude with kind of a Hitler-esque mustache, a shaved head and an extremely raspy voice. He has a harsh demeanor but he's a get r done kind of guy. He walks into a building and everyone knows him. The crowds part for him. He's made a business of being a "contact." He's a crazy driver, driving on the wrong side of a median-divided road when there's a traffic jam, and it would seem he knows every police officer/ government official in Port Au Prince.
He really intrigues me in that he scares me at the same time as I really kind of like him. I wonder how he met all these people. I wonder what he's like in his personal life. I wonder how his voice got so raspy. I wonder if he was a good guy or a bad guy in the military. I wonder if harsh demeanor is real or all an act.
He doesn't seem to appreciate my "bubbly" joking/conversationalist personality. I feel like he ignores 75% of what I say. Which would lead me to believe he really doesn't care for me. But he did tell Eddie (our bodyguard and right-hand man) that he likes working with me and that I make him laugh. (Which he must do at home in his private time because I have never once heard the man laugh. Or even seen him smile.) And in all honesty, the laughing he probably does related to me is most likely at my expense, not because I am so witty. :) He's just that kind of guy.
I always want to try to get a picture of him on my Blackberry when I am tweeting about him, but I am not sure if he carries a gun (my guess would be no because I can't imagine anyone trying to mess with him) and I am not sure how he would feel about his picture being taken. I don't want to risk him as a contact and piss him off. So I just do what he tells me to do and try to keep up with his lighting speed walking pace. (Which, as I mentioned in a recent tweet, makes me feel like (and undoubtably look like) a contestant in The Biggest Loser. :)
Intriguing I tell you.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Sunday, September 19, 2010
That's my dad.
2 His children will be mighty in the land;
the generation of the upright will be blessed.
3 Wealth and riches are in his house,
and his righteousness endures forever.
4 Even in darkness light dawns for the upright,
for the gracious and compassionate and righteous man.
5 Good will come to him who is generous and lends freely,
who conducts his affairs with justice.
6 Surely he will never be shaken;
a righteous man will be remembered forever.
7 He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD.
8 His heart is secure, he will have no fear;
in the end he will look in triumph on his foes.
9 He has scattered abroad his gifts to the poor,
his righteousness endures forever;
his horn will be lifted high in honor.
10 The wicked man will see and be vexed,
he will gnash his teeth and waste away;
the longings of the wicked will come to nothing.
That's my dad.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
I have been largely silent on the issue of the change of leadership in Joy in Hope/Haitian Children’s Home as I’ve felt a prompting to “rise above” the untrue and hurtful things that were being said about my family, specifically my husband. But I can be silent no more and feel I must explain the tensions we’re currently walking in.
Here are some of the facts of the issue for all you “facts people.” I want to go into more detail, but I am unsure of what I can legally share.
1. After what the Board of Directors decided to be a series of “irreconcilable breaches of trust” (I am tired of that expression, but it’s all I can give you now) with Danny Pye, he was removed from a leadership capacity in Joy in Hope/Haitian Children's Home. This occurred August 29, 2010. The full intention of the Board was to keep Danny and Leann in their roles as houseparents and give them a hiatus from responsibilities to spend time intentionally building their family and marriage.
2. Between August 29 and Sept 3, there was another series of events/discoveries that lead the Board to decide to remove Danny and Leann as houseparents. A generous bridge of support was offered to the Pyes, but as of yet, has not been accepted.
3. Nick stepped into the role as “acting director” from a Haiti side until a new director can be found.
4. Since this has happened, we’ve received 8 death threats resulting in us having to increase security, and confine ourselves and kids to secured areas (ie- traveling with armed guards, etc.)
5. Since this has happened, the birth certificates of 5 of our Haitian children have been held hostage by a Joy in Hope employee who was terminated.
Here’s a few of the feelings we’re feeling as we process all of this:
1. We are sad. We are so sad. I have cried myself to sleep a half a dozen times in the past two weeks. I have cried (like really cried-- the UGLY cry) every single day.
2. We are scared. We are scared for our safety. We are scared for our future. We are scared because we don’t live in a place where justice always reigns.
3. We are anxious. I didn’t eat for three days after this all went down. I have had constant diarrhea. My hair is falling out. I have a mouth full of canker sores. I am trying to "turn all of these anxieties into prayers," as the Christian in me knows I should, but it is very overwhelming.
4. We are angry. We are angry that we’ve been lied to and we are hurting. We are angry that lies are being spread about our family within the community.
Here is what we know:
1. God is on the throne. His plan will prevail even through this.
2. Building our family here in Haiti remains the only reason we stay here to endure this. We love all 10 of our children with a forever love that keeps us walking on as we fill roles we never wanted or intended to fill. God promises not to leave us as orphans in John 14:18. That is why we were created-- to walk in family with God. That is what we cling to as we trudge through this.
Thanks for letting me share my heart...
Friday, September 10, 2010
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Everything you needed done was done for you.
Now you do it on your own
But you find you're all alone,
What can you do?
You and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now.
You know there will be days when you're so tired that you can't take another step,
The night will have no stars and you'll think you've gone as far as you will ever get
But you and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now
And yeah, yeah, go where you want to go
Be what you want to be,
If you ever turn around, you'll see me.
I can't really say why everybody wishes they were somewhere else
But in the end, the only steps that matter are the ones you take all by yourself
And you and me walk on
Yeah you and me walk on
Cause you can't go back now
Walk on, walk on, walk on
You can't go back now
More lyrics: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/the_weepies/#share
For those of you who don't know, Nick and I were very involved in children's ministry for almostna decade at Crosspointe before we moved here to Haiti. This was all done In one week under the leadership of one of my very best friends in the whole world-- Kris Stoner. (and three amazing teams of volunteers.).
I can't wait until I can visit and see it in person.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
It might have been my favorite moment as a parent to date.
Nearly all of my kids (even my "hard" ones) gave Fritzie gifts. They saved up their own money and bought her candy, but they also wrapped up some of their own toys (and I am just going to be honest, they don't have that many toys) and gave them to her. They were wrapped in random paper and strips of duct tape, glued shut cake boxes, whatever they could find.
My eyes teared up to see Jerry's stuffed animal, his tinker toy, a yarn doll, and his laminated "school work" being unwrapped by Fritzie. He was so proud. I was so proud of him.
And so it was with kid after kid. They had wrapped up their "precious" things and gave them away to make her happy on her birthday.
This life is hard. But DANG, moments like this-- I just don't have the words...
Pretty much the sweetest 16 ever. I love my kids.