... and I am sitting up here in the office because I can't fall asleep. I just took a Benedryl (which is sure to make the morning fun) but I am just totally keyed up-- and not in a good way.
There's a very serious situation going on with my cousin's family right now, and I am just heartbroken. I can't understand why or how God could let something like this happen. I've just been crying out to Him with all these questions-- it's something I can't wrap my mind around and for which there are no easy answers.
Today in my Bible study we were listening to Beth Moore talk about the curse after the fall in the garden of Eden. The whole idea of having to work through life with thorns and thistles to deal with. She made the comment that in a land flowing with milk and honey, you still have to deal with the bees. And then she said, "Life ain't pretty." It's true. Many times, life just plain sucks. And just when you think it can't get any worse--- BAM-- the unthinkable happens.
Lord, I don't understand. I am AGAIN drawn to Psalm 13... How long O Lord?
